Haha, form the looks of the last post it appears I'm going CRAAAAA-zy.
I don't even remember when I posted that. What was it, two days ago? A lot can change in two days. New strategies. I'm trying to ignore the roomate; that seems like the best way to deal with him. Sometimes it's hard though, like when he's standing behind me at my computer watching everything I do. It is times like these when I want to punch him in the face. But I am working on ignoring him.
I disabled comments in the blog. I know, even I am wondering what the point of a blog is if no one can comment, but there you have it. The problem has equal parts to do with anger and a sort of apathy. On the one hand, if someone agrees with me, that is nice, but it is far outweighed by people who disagree. You see, I am barraged at all times (seemingly) by viewpoints opposing mine, and it pisses me off. I'd like a forum where I can just state my ideas unopposed. More on the anger thing: the way I used to deal with anger is eventually I'd just forget/forgive whatever it was I was angry at. I.E. the anger would just fade away with time. But here and now there is just too much to be angry at and with there is just not enough time for it to fade away. So that is a problem.
I've also noticed that since I've long since adopted a policy of not caring what others think with regards to myself, that I should really get to actually, you know, not caring what others think with regards to myself. Like relationships for instance. I don't really need one. There's no one who stands out really. And yet I feel sad about not being in a relationship. And that's stupid. To be sad about it I mean. So I've decided that A) I'm not getting into a relationship with anyone, I'm not going to entertain the idea, and I'm not going to even think of it as a possibility at all, unless someone comes along that I actually genuinely like and B) not to be sad about it. So what if others have relationships? I just don't need it.
I'm considering taking the blog local--making it a diary on my laptop that only I can see. When it was starting out it was more geared to entertain others but now it is more personal and I don't even want comments anymore so I guess the diary thing is a good idea. Maybe if I have stories or poems or something I'll post them here. I dunno. Having a diary seems kinda weird. Who am I writing to? Myself? Well w/e.
-Revan
Orange trees = retarded
Everyone always says "college is the best years of your life." Well that's great for them. Because if this first year of college is any indication, it SUCKS. College has taken me off my throne. I used to be on top of the world, and now I don't even know what the hell is going on. For heaven's sake, I took caculus II just last year; I'm taking it again now, and I don't recognize it at ALL. And then there's my life--where the hell is it going? Nowhere, apparently. I don't know what I want to do with myself or how. Oh, and I don't have any friends here. Not really. So that sucks.
New paragraph! Take today, for instance. I was really depressed in class. REALLY depressed. But then I got back to my room and in a few hours I was really HAPPY. And I don't know WHY. Now I am depressed again. It doesn't help that it's all so liberal everywhere you look here. Yeah. What now. I'm so depressed, but that does not mean I can not keep complaining about that. I mean, why does everyone get so gosh darn STUPID once they arrive at college? There is this thing they are pushing, I would say it is a liberal idea because it is retarded and they want to take my money for it. They want to plant orange trees on campus so students can "grab a snack on the way to class." Now I am no expert on orange trees, but I am guessing they do not each produce HUNDREDS OF ORANGES PER DAY. Not to mention it would be unsanitary. Unless you added pesticides, but then half the student body would get up in arms about that, which is pretty darned funny when you think about it.
"On the average, a 'Washington Navel' orange tree may bear approximately 100 fruits in a season."
There we go. A SEASON. Maybe it's a different orange tree though. But that wouldn't keep it from being SUPREMELY RETARDED.
Liberal liberal liberal. It's freaking everywhere and it's pissing me off. Leave me alone people. I don't want to HEAR IT.
-Revan, of course. Who else? WHO ELSE I SAY